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Just another desolate soul
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| Cuz I made it up, biotch. xD |
[Oct. 17th, 2004|09:30 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | L'arc~En~Ciel - What Is Love | ] |
1. What's your name?:
2. What are your nicknames for me?:
3. What are my nicknames for you?:
4. What do you mean to me?:
5. Do I like Cheetos?:
6. Do you like Cheetos?:
7. Yeah you better.:
8. Describe my taste in music.:
9. Raccoons are...:
10. Finish this sentence: Toilet paper...:
11. Finish THIS sentence: If I were a toaster...:
12. What is my religion?:
13. Have you seen me with my pants off?:
14. What were you doing looking, you perv? =\:
15. Do you even WANT to see me with my pants off?:
16: =\ Why?:
17. Do you like me?:
18. Do I like you?:
19. Do I care for world issues?:
20. Scratch that. Do I even care about the world?:
21. Happy birthday. =):
22. Jimmy cracks corn and I don't care....what the hell does that mean?:
23. What time is it?:
24. Where do you live?:
25. Will you give me your address?:
26. Do you think I'd stalk you? Do you want me to? Because I will. =|:
27. Am I scary to you? Now? Now? Now?:
28. Is this just plain annoying?
29. Yeah, it better be. =|:
30. Who do I think is the epitome of Asian cuteness?:
31. What about American cuteness?:
32: Who do I think can kick both their butts?:
33. You know me pretty well if you can answer those two questions.:
34. Are you just stalking me?:
35. Who's Caligula?:
36. BA-BA-BA-BA-BA BUM! IT'S BANANA!:
37. Am I making sense to you?:
38. No, I didn't think so.:
39. How close are you to me?:
40. Do you want sex?:
41. What about with me?:
42. Why not?:
43. What if I demanded it? =\:
44. Why do you think I'm asking so much questions about sex?:
45. Am I annoying?:
46. There's a snake in mah boot!:
47. Woody. What comes to mind first?:
48. It's almost the end! Whee!:
49. List five things you hate about me:
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50. List five things you love about me:
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| Cuz I can BIOTCH. |
[Oct. 3rd, 2004|09:31 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bouncy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | None | ] |
01. who are you, what's our relationship:
02. how and where did we meet:
03. what's my middle name:
04. do i believe in God:
05. when you first saw me what was your impression:
06. my favorite band at the moment:
07. have you ever had a crush on me:
08. what's one of my favorite things to do:
09. would you consider me a friend:
10. describe me in 3 words:
11. if there were one good nickname for me what would it be:
12. name 5 things i love:
13. do you think i'm good looking:
14. have we kissed:
15. would you ever date me:
16. tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did (and i know there's something:
17: what do you like most about me:
18: have you ever seen me with my pants off:
19: if we could spend a day together what would we do:
20: have we ever gotten in a fight? what was it about?: |
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| Furidashita no wa, ame. |
[Sep. 29th, 2004|08:55 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  Grr, baby, grr. | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Melancholic - Plastic Tree | ] |
I keep listening to this single track more and more. And thought I can never find translations for it, I think I'm slowly putting it together. Yeah, right. I can catch little snatches of it and translate it in my head the best I can. I should ask mum, but...later.
Dinner today was bad. I wasn't hungry, but I forced myself to eat. The result is me feeling very rather sick and dizzy right now.
The day was alright. I seem to be making a lot of new sophomore/freshmen friends. All because I like Mini Zeus borrow my cell. Isn't that lovely. Anyway, let's take a head count. I seem to have caught up a little with Sarah, due to Kei I can now say hi to Aaron, her older brother. Erm. There's George's sister who's name I never remember, but talk to ever since she was in my last year's history. She's awesome - and nice, like George who says hi to Jen and I for absolutely no reason and that sorta freaks me out. Erm. There's my new friend, Kevin, or as he wanted to be called, Tidus. Unfortunately, I changed his whole name to Burrito. Then there's Magic Apache, Hubcap (though I haven't talked to him, I dub him that since I learne dhis real name was Wally.) Demi I had heard about from Scott (who also happens to be part of my new friends) but it's only a while ago I got to talk to her. She seems pretty nice, actually. There's Mindy, Michelle, and erm...that...other chick.....who's name I forgot...but get into water wars with Demi. And there's the other Sarah....though I didn't say a word to her I know her name. Same thing with the Amish Kid, I need to talk to him. And Adam Greenileaf. XD o_O So...wow. That's a lot of friends. I talk to Magic Apache, Burrito, and Scott the most though. Oh! And Amber. Can't forget Amber.
We watched our video to human phys.
..............I am so sorry for Kallen and Scott. ._.;' Of all the acting we did, you two had the WORST roles. A mother giving birth and a Middle Eastern nurse named Nurse Sinep. And poor Marina, who had to be Doctor Anigav.
Monopoly is alright. Then again, the first few minutes of Monopoly are always alright. After a while, it gets *really* irritating. As irritating as Jessie and Robert. I'm taking a knife to school from now on - for jerks like them. I shall stab them in the head.
Now. I missed the bus - had to catch the second one. Kinda glad, as if I hadn't, I wouldn't have met up with Magic Apache, Sarah, Burrito, and George's sister. We talked 'til they left - and I chilled to Dir En Grey.
People like my mismatched stockings. =D Yay. Or hate it. It doesn't really matter. I got stares and compliments. I feel accomplished for wowing people with my absolutely dreadful sense of style. x3 I feel so. New. Yay.
Conrad shocks me with his arrogance. Or confidence. Whatever. It just surprises me he tells me, "I can get any girl I want." There's a lot mroe to it, and that's the most arrogant thing he's said though. That's why it stuck. Other than "Mason is so protective of her."
HOLY SHIT. He knew what I was thinking. I am so freaked out. And he apologized. *hides* My thoughts can be read by others.
So can they tell I'm jealous of Elisha? >>;'! Oh gnoes...
Gaaahhh. I get so jealous so easily. But I guess it's because I don't know the whole of things and assume too much, and thus... *shrug*
Why am I getting tangled in the middle of all of Mason's friends? @_@;' It's not my place to know, much less keep secrets. *die*
Rawr. I shall talk to Conrad now, and vent. And blow off steam and come off as a pissy, PMSing woman.
Which I probably am.
Yay. |
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| It doesn't make sense. |
[Sep. 28th, 2004|11:05 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  complacent | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Plastic Tree - Melancholy xD | ] |
The Generic Teenager Stereotype
Do you drink [alcohol]?: Every now and then. I'd be downing Tuaca, but I drank it all.
Do you party a lot? How often?: Every day is a party on my lonesome! =D Or with my friends. x3
Do you use drugs for recreational purposes? Caffine. To stay up or something. Or just generally get hyper.
How often do you use the word like in an average hour?: I know I increase it's usage when describing conversations with people. ("Yeah, and they she was all like 'WHOA! WTF!? DUDE!?!' And I was like, 'I have nooo freakin' clue.'")
Do you skip classes? How often?: Do whole days of school count? XD If so, then so far........a lot. XDD;'
Do you steal?: Not anything useful or of much purpose to the world....y'know....like....advertisements and...traffic cones...
Do you wear inappropriate clothing?: Depends what you call inappropriate. For Hawaii, it's pretty casual. The mainland, I got quite a number of glares though. xD
Do you drool over celebrities?: Julian the Panda. xD And uhm. Hot Japanese guys. xD;' And vox humanas.
Do you watch a lot of TV?: Kinda, sorta, every so often, maybe, I don't know.
Do you ever watch the News?: In the morning, to find out the weather, so I may plan out what to wear accordingly. OR, when I hear something that happens to ctch my interest. There's a lot of murders for a little, overpopulated island like us.
Do you care about world issues?: ...no, not completely. I don't mind discussing it and voicing my opinion, but I won't necessarily get off my lazy arse and do something. Unless it's something I detest a LOT.
Do you read books often?: Amazingly, yes. Mostly for school, but Poppy Z. Brite has such good works... Mm..Ghost. xD;'
Are you failing a lot of your classes?: Just one. I underestimated the points for a homework. xD;' Damn.
Do you spend most of your time with your friends?: No. None of them can really get out. I do spend a lot of time with internet friends though. xD;';'
Do you hang out a lot in malls, or at Seven Elevens?: I can be found at parks, really. Or record stores. Mall is okay, but so goddamn noisy.
Do you often find yourself with a crush on someone?: When I'm not with someone, I try to distract myself with idle fansies. But those are usually things I recognise won't happen. xD;'And I don't rave about it. X_x
Do you curse a lot?: Yes. Yes yes yes yes yes.
Are you desperate to fit in?: Naw. People just talk to me anyway. >>;' It's rather annoying... But it's something to do when yer lonely.
Are you intelligent?: Uh. No.
The Goth Stereotype
Black lipstick?: I'm contemplating buying some. But it's mostly red for me.
Black eyeliner?: When I bother to wear make up at all/
Black eyeshadow?: Naw. Eccentric colours for me. Like. Silvery blue. xD Yes, I have worn it. And yes, I do like it.
Black trenchcoat?: With silver buckles baby.
Black boots?: ...XD Several pairs.
Black fishnets?: And red too.
Black nail polish?: Yup. But Kei chipped off the rest today while I was zoning.
Cigarettes?: Naw. People keep tellin' me its bad, and besides, it stinks. xD
Heavy metal music?: ...*shrug* I dunno....xD;' To me, music is music. If the beat is good and the lyrics are excellent, I love it to death.
Marilyn Manson?: *shrug* 's okay....not an every day thing but 's okay.
Kittie?: xD;' 's okay.
Cradle of Filth?: ......who? xD;'
Constant frown and perpetual angst?: Naw. I smile. I'm only like that at home. xD
Are you an intellectual?: Peh. As intelligent as lettuce with the memory of a tit mouse.
An atheist?: More or less. There are some things I believe, and some things that are complete and utter bullshit.
Horrible home life?: Naw. xD My mom and dad are the best out there, and I appreciate them. HA!
Hopelessly depressed?: More or less.
Suffering with suicidal idealations?: More or less. Fuck knows I've tried more than my share. xD
Self-mutilation?: Last year. It's a pity the scars didn't survive. Then again, I don't think I'd take kindly to having my ex's name carved into my arm.
The Punk Stereotype
Plaid?: In skirts. I don't mind it, really. Plaid shirts are neat too.
Big black boots?: Erm. Do combat boots count as "big"?
Mohawk?: I was thinking about it, then I thought of other hair styles. xD;'
Excessive piercings? [Especially facial]: *cries* I want to. I'm a fan of piercings.
Wild hair colors?: I want to. xD I wanted to dye my hair green at one point, cuz I rarely saw people with green hair.
NOFX?: 's okay.
Well versed on political scandals and outrages?: Mmm....noooo. I DO know a terriorist though. xD He knows who I'm talking about.
The Girl Stereotype
Do you spend a lot of time on your appearance?: Clothes and make up, when I want to. But clothes mostly. I like to find stuff that match, but doesn't seem to be worn by people here.
Have you ever been on a diet?: No. I'm too lazy to bother to care.
How much did you lose?: On a diet? None. Now, because I was sick? Sometimes one ot two pounds, sometimes five pounds. I believe that was the most. (Went from 115 to 110)
Was it not so much a diet as it was an eating disorder?: I don't have one, I think...
Make yourself throw up?: No. I usually throw up cuz I'm feelin' sick and somethin' disgusted me enough to.
Make-up?: Every now and then.
Low-cut tops?: Sometimes. xD' My corset mostly, but Kaj is just... xD;' She's making it hard to wear it
Do you flip your hair when you talk, even if you don't realize it?: I dunno. xD I don't realize it. I used to. Angie's teased me a lot about it.
Giggle a lot?: On the phone, with certain people, with certain moods. xD I go nuts.
What's the deal with boys?: They bloody suck, in all senses. They're mean, insentive jerks with their cocky little heads up their ass and farts in their brain. They smell, they have no respect, and they deserve to be smacked around. But some are okay. Most are annoying. Two are the greatest. (Mason and Oven Mitt, cuz he makes Kei happy and that's cute. x3) And one I need to apologise to majorly. (I'M SORRY BLAZEY PUU!)
YM, Teen, Cosmo, at all?: Nope. The only magazine I look at is either Shounen Jump or Spin, if only for comics and The Strokes things. xD
Who's the weaker sex?: It doesn't matter. We rot the same when we're dead.
Are you a feminist?: Probably, but without realizing it. My favourite feminist is Amber though. XD
Do you think Brad Pitt is hot?: Only in Interview with a Vampire. XD
Are you emotional?: Too much so.
Boyfriend/girlfriend: Mmmhmmm.
Crush: I think it's a wee bit more than that. And by wee, I mean shit loads. And when I say bit more, I mean worlds more.
Do you love anyone right now: Everyone close to me. And when I say close, I meant to my heart, not to my approximate place of existence.
Have you ever been in love: Yup.
Ever really cared for someone in that way: Mmhmm.
Ever had sex: Naw.
How many hearts have you broken: *shrug* I don't regularly talk to my ex's, or to people who claim they like me at random times. *coughcoughDevincoughcough* They don't tell me shit soooo... I know I've prolly hurt Lei's a while back though.
How many people broke your heart: In all honesty, one. Every other relationship before was merely fancy, and I learned a little something about liking someone. Talldo was the one to do me in.
So what's your significant other like: Do you really want to hear it? I know Mason does. xD Fine, fine. I'll write another ESSAY cuz he's so awesome. Dammit, that just ruined any serious I was gonna put in this. Hmmm. Let me think... Blaze is right. He knows me pretty goddamn well, so he knows what pisses me off and what tends to soothe me, thought he does make his mistakes. xD;' I make my mistakes too, and piss him off by confusing him by being pissed off for something stupid. Hmm. He can come off as angry at the utter injustice the world has, but when you get close to him, he's really loving. He has a lot of potential, it's just he's never given the chance or he's just too lazy to do it. x3 I lil' prodding should help that though. Hmm. He's got a quirky senseof humour and a bit of a deranged mind, but that's okay as it mirrors mine in many ways. We have a bad tendacy to mock each other, but that's okay, because he's so funny. x3 He's nice (to me, mostly), and mushy and it's so adorable when he goes on one of his, "Mu. Mu. Mu. Guess what." "What?" "I love you." "Aww, I love you too." "Oh yeah. But here's the ultimate guess what." ...what?" "Chicken butt." Lately we've been having some arguments that I've started over stupid things, but we sit there and talk it out, so I have confidence this will work. He's odd and I like it that way. He can be abit of a paradox, but that's fine as everyone can be like that. So, to sum him up... Hmm. He's my angry, psycho, logical, used to be depressed, honest, strange, caring, crazy, random, loving, understanding, perhaps slightly insecure boyfriend/girlfriend, and I love him to bits. |
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| Anti-homeland. |
[Sep. 27th, 2004|08:38 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | guilty | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Melancholic - Plastic Tree | ] |
I'm hating Hawaii more than I hate my ex, and that's a lot. I think I may counter my mother on moving. I might be able to do it. I might not. I don't know, but it's worth a try.
School sucks like bloody hell. I haven't studied for Mr. Monette's goddamn Jeopardy. I don't think I'm going to give much of a damn. Tried to have a meeting at recess, but they didn't show so... Ain't my fault. We fail, we fuckin' fail. I can't wait to see the videos. Personally, I hope ours kicks the most ass. We had so much bloody fun making it anyway. I guess that's the best experience we can really get out of it.
I feel bad. Very bad. X_x Mason, I'm sorry for having PMS (Pissed at Mason Syndrome). As much as I had reason, I didn't. I shouldn't be like this.... I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. |
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| Sweet and sour sauce all over my......desk. |
[Sep. 23rd, 2004|06:38 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  indescribable | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Child Prey - Dir En Grey | ] |
Eating at the desk is never a wise idea. But....I dunno. It's Panda Express. Chinese usually gives me a stomach ache but...I love this chicken to bits.
Sometimes, I feel very obligaqted to try and update this journal as much as I possibly can. Sometimes, boredom just urges me to do it. Today, I think it's a combination of both.
School flows as normal, with it's Big Ugly. The weekend approaches and I look forward to two things: talkin' on the phone and the war scene. What I'm not looking forward to: pretty much no free time. Sunday is filming (date was pushed back. Thank you, Kenneth and those three other people not free on Saturday), and Saturday I plan doing some homework. I need some things down for Mahony. Hey, if I'm talkin' to Mason at the same time, he can help me, no? If he wants to, at least. I've gotten pissed a few times this week - once to the point of homocide. But, I've calmed. We got to meet Oven Mitt, and that rocked. He likes Kaj's rantings. I got mobbed by a bunch of sophomores after-school. When I say mobbed, I mean it in a friendly way. They were annoying, but everyone is at first. And they're pretty nice, really. One of 'em reminds me of a miniture Zeus. =\ I'm disappointed they like Metallica. I'm hoping my math teacher will let me off the hook for not having my school ID. I've misplaced it somewhere a few days after school began, and I haven't been able to find it since. Now she deducts points for not having it. I gotta be on my utmost best behaviour. I'm not doin' an art project, and neither is Kaj or Jen. I'm having a bad feelin' I'm influencing them in that class with my procrastination. Well, I know I'm influencing Kaj, anyway. Since I've gotten these MD's, I've been listening to the same two over and over again. I can't help it. I'm in love with them. They all around rock. My poor Plastic Tree.
Oh Ryuutarou-chan! Fear not! I shant neglect you! I will cuddle you and listen to your voice when seductive Kyo releases me from his grasps. Damn my weakness for a good vocalist. Mmm....Julian Casablancas.....Miyavi.... *purr*
Relationship wise, everything is goin' rather smooth. I'm bein' pounced upon by some old, silly fears but that's usual. A small serious talk usually helps with that. I was gonna have one today too, but I stumbled upon an old chat and couldn't help myself. Goddamn it was funny. Old, old, old raping memories that disturb Mason and show him a whole new side of Glory and Sio.
Sio is a biter. =[ Why afraid, Mason? xD I thought you liked biting. 'cept down thurr. Which she does. So. Uhm. Yeah. xD Still. Why afraid? =[ I still say you plannin' on gettin' some from her. >o Bad girlfriend! *smacks green-eyed monster* X.x Damn my mind assumes too much and sees too many hidden motives within people of all walks. I think Kei's mindset is gettin' to me. I'm all paranoid 'bout gettin' hurt or not bein' good enough or hurtin' him or turnin' out to be somethin' like Hamish or trustin' too much or trusting too less or bein' left or leavin' or something or other.
Damn. Twi left AIM before I could even talk to her. \= It was gonna get funny too. Damn damn damn.
I've been listening to Jealousy and Child Prey all day. I can't understand how Jealousy isn't liked by Mason. It's one of their mellower songs and it makes me feel all relaxed and slightly sad.
I wonder if Scott did the paper. I have a feeling...no. Shit. I should've took it and done it myself. I already told him it was an unwanted pregnancy in the first place, and a death on my mind is nothing. xD I've killed useless animals before (though, more on accident but hey. A death is a death - no?) Oh. And our aborted Edward's Syndrome child? Henry Hamish Dumass, of course. xD I told Kaj that and she said nothing in the world should ever be named Hamish. She said if there was a flower - no matter how pretty - that was named Hamish, she would burn the species to extinction. xD Hell hath no wrath like a woman spurned or some shit like that.
We're out of coke. Damn. Shit. Shit. .-. This is the last of the soda in the fridge. I should put more in.
Jen and Kaj can be so extremely predictable. Wot with wot Kaj'll say when she gets uber repetetive and Jen and her game obsessions. Kei, you agree.
Tomorrow are single periods. Yay. School still ends at 2:20. Boo. I don't know how to count. Duuuhhh.
I brag about Mason a lot. I think he brags about me too. Innit that cuuuuute?
Period one is Monette, Human Phys. Period two is Windnagle, English. Period three is Isawa, Japanese. Period four is Mahony, US History. Period five is Renti-Cruz, math. Period six is Karen, art. Just for those who are curious.
Mum let me have the change from the dinner I had. Yay! Three more dollars. I need to yell at James to give me the dollar he owes me from lunch a few weeks ago, and then save up again. Me an' Mas'll save up enough for one of us to take a trip somewhere. I still think he should come here. He might need the break from his family for a lil' bit. 'sides, he needs to meet *my* friends. And we'll hang out at Arby's and go crazy from the drugs in the drinks. xD And get more people to think we're a lesbian couple. Though, with his body structure, might be a *tad* bit hard...
"Wait, wait, wait...Mu, you have a boyfriend?" <-- Amber's quote of the day. I find it so funny. Just the disbelief in her voice, as well as her face. I was thinking, "Wot? xD Thought me an' Kaj were an item?" Oh well. Amber hates men anyway. It's amusing. She has some guy friends, but their friendships are *strained* due to the guys' genders. xD Heehee. Amber's a femnist.
Another reason I want Mason to come. We'll get him a visitor's pass, and he could come up to our school and check it out. And intimidate people with mean looks and a feminine voice. And I'll show him to Mahony, and get extra credit for dating an Indian! =D! lmao. Naw, I just wanna show him off cuz he's so awesome. ^^;' I bet we'd be somewhat PDA, and annoy some of the people thurr. Harr.
Walking along train tracks by a river is a very seductive idea too. Unfortunately, I'm afraid of the train tracks bein' haunted. That'd suck. Trying to enjoy the evenin' and you look up and see lynched bodies hangin' from the trees overhead. Not a good thought. =\ =/ But, I don't think Mason believes in ghosts, and I don't feel all that much like bothering him with my foolish little fears that are prolly only in my head anyway. Everything I see can't exist, ne? Some have gotta be my imagination...
Wow. This is a long post. Erm. I leave it as it is now. So. Erm. Bye. |
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| Words aren't strong enough. |
[Sep. 20th, 2004|01:50 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | pissed off | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Angels Fuck, Devils Kiss - Jack Off Jill | ] |
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| Rainbow footsteps in the sand. |
[Sep. 19th, 2004|09:13 pm] |
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| | (in love) | ] |
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| | Blurry Eyes - Lar'c En Ciel | ] |
This is insane. I must be insane. I'm thinking I'm insane. Everything is insane. Thoughts are insane. Life is insane.
I'm lovin' again, and it ain't all bad. I've finally found a person that doesn't just listen/watch me cry, but cries with me. I have never met anyone who did that. It's a strange new feeling. It's a wonderful feeling. I like hearing him talk, cuz as feminine as his voice is, it's very soothing. And I like picking stupid fights with him, and his funny little habit of pressuring me to tell him things when I'm too shy to say it or when I've got his curiosity. We interrupt each other so badly, it's funny.
I asked my father (rather jokingly) about moving to the mainland. This is basically how it went, "So how about we move to the mainland and buy a ferret?" "Then come back here? The ferret is still illegal." "No, I mean, just stay there." "I don't intend on moving, nope, sorry. -You- can go, if you want." "Okay then. I'll move. Just give me the money." "No, no, no, no, no. This is -your- idea. You want to do it, -you- get your own money."
So, I'm actually considering getting a job, saving up my money, and buying a one way ticket to some major, anonymous city. All for a guy. Well, I've done many things all for a certain individual, but this idea of mine seems to be the craziest. Probably because I know I can do it, if I tried. And probably even more so, because I know I will do it at some point in time. I mean, why not?
Oh well. Oh well oh well oh well.
I would update about my ife, but it's pretty mundane. The most exciting thing since my relatives came has been four Dir En Grey Mds, a MD player, and a Plastic Tree CD. That, and seeing a turtle and having my feet chased after by a goddamm jack fish. I swear, if I see it again, I'm kicking it. Screw Hanauma Bay's rules, that fish is goin' down. |
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| Oh. My. Rod. |
[Sep. 14th, 2004|10:46 pm] |
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| | Yokan - Dir En Grey | ] |
OHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYRODOHMYROD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Forgive the overly girlish post, but seriously. I'm so happy for Kei, I can explode! THIS IS GONNA BE AWESOME. x3 I soooooooo must find out how this goes. It's like watching a T.V show. 'cept the plot crawls along so slowly. x3 Gotta see how this turns out!
Sometimes, mundane everyday things ARE SO EXCITING AND FUN. Especially when they happen to a friend.
=3 Good luck, Kei-chan! Gambatte! xD;' Dunno why, but it seems apropriate at the time.
(Relatives coming tomorrow. Day off. On a day I have a test for Mahony. =O Hope he doesn't come after me with one of his swords or daggers.)
Looking forward to Friday/the weekend. |
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